It all started when, back in November, I noticed that our team was no longer doing the work according to the content plan, and later I needed to take a little break myself.

In December, before the New Year holidays, all organizations went on vacation, and we announced that we were going on vacation after the "Spheres" post. I thought that since there was no work, my team could take a break from work and focus on themselves, but that was not the case. On the night of December 31 to January 1, I caught another bout of sadness and simply lived in black and white. By January 10 (MOST's birthday), I realized that I needed help/support. Even if I'm not 18, I need it.

And now, I realize that I should have started helping and stopped caring about fulfilling the plan a long time ago. Luciel is now in exile with her partner (I want to help her, but I don't know how), Vanya is currently overwhelmed with work and relationship problems with her boyfriend, and Onyx (Oni) recently lost a relative. I don't know how to help them; I don't have any talent for supporting them. I feel so sad.

From 11:30 p.m. in Yekaterinburg until 3:00 a.m., I lay in bed and cried quietly because I didn't want to give up; I wanted to help them somehow. And then this morning, at 6:00 a.m., I decided that since I couldn't help anyone, I couldn't give up media (it has become a part of me), so why not create a new media outlet, which, as the word "Voice" suggests, wants to help through pain and start talking about everything that was hurting.

Now MOST and Golos are combined into one channel: @golosmeq, and Fediverse is now here: @golos@fleacf.space